Wrote yesterday.....

I hope everybody has read the prior two posts.. They are essential to understand my situation. Or at least to understand my obsession. So here I am not even three hours later with another comment (post)… I am wondering if I should not call and let her call me…? She I called and she called the next couple of times then I called then she called me. So do I call or let her? Well beyond that my true post comes down to a related yet different situation. My best friend, often referred to as brother, since we grew up together and have been best friends for over half out lives. Well he has decided that he wants to start hanging out with my ex. A girl I was with for like ever and lived with and almost married. Well he has been hanging out with her a lot in the last couple of days weeks. Unsure of when they started this exactly, and I think that is the problem I have with it. See I think with everything I have on my mind in the ladies department I would care less if he wanted to start f’ing her. But the thing I am having difficulties with is that he is not telling me about it. He has yet to say shit to me about it, most of what I know is from putting the pieces together from his stupid excuses. Like last night he was over watching football and he got a call and was talking to the person, made plans to go play pool with the person, then as the conversation progressed it became apparent who it was from what he said. Then after he got off the phone he started acting all sketchy and vague. Time past, he was like I am leaving to go play some pool. And the whole time he was making a point to not say who he was going with. So I have an issue with a “brother” who wont even give me the decency to say “Hey I am banging your Ex.” Well I guess that is my issue. Is that not proper protocol? You are supposed to atleast ask… Right? Like I said before if he had asked I would have probably been fine with it. But he is trying to hide it from me like I am a idiot… Which I am not. And I know if I confront him on it he will think I am being petty and stupid. Or he will play it off like “we are just friends…” Whatever, I know the situation and that is what pisses me off. F’it I am done… Goodnight… >>> I worte this yesterday but posted it on my other blog... It is no longer valid as I have came to terms with the fact I have a ton of bad karma to work off, and this is more or less what I deserve...