This is bat country!!!

So my days have been super busy... Thus the lack of posts and lack of phone answering... My house is a wreck... Moving is getting annoying. I will be stressing to finish moving this weekend. It is terrible... Well I am looking at a lot of exciting things happening in the next few days.

Congratulations to me... I am back to being my old enthusiastic self. I am outgoing and funny and am great at conversations with people... I have re-became a people person. I dont know where this part of me went... But it is back...

I am looking forward to this weekend... Once I am out at the studio, I will put off the unpacking process as so to have time for a new painting that I have stuck in my head... It will be wonderful to be able to get back to painting regularly.... Well back to work...

Winter thoughts...

Writing this… I do not remember where I left off… I had an uneventful weekend… I won a bunch of money at the local casino… I had an informative discussion with an ex… Had a gay guy try to hit on me… I am convinced that I will reach a breaking point when it comes to this life thing I am trying to do… I am starting slower then expected when it comes to getting in shape and healthy… I miss talking to a certain girl… But I guess that is more my fault then anybody else’s…

Hope all is well….

Internet is slow

Irish pubs are one of the world’s greatest inventions… My friends and I visited one last night and had a wonderful time… I am thinking I need to start doing that more often.
Today is a day that will not end… I am on the edge of my seat ready for the day to end… Or at least get to the point where I can head home and nap… Well I hope all is well for everybody…

Two in one day...

just like to say this… About a year and a half ago, I only ate healthy foods and worked out daily… I felt wonderful, I was in great shape… And the best part about it was although I did not look that much different then I do now, I had so much confidence. I got an email from that ex, the one who is living closer then before. Even though I did not tell her about my situation she was encouraging me to date, “you deserve someone good. You are a catch, you could get any girl…” On and on. Now I am thinking about it, when I had that mindset, back when I was in shape I could get any girl. AND at the time I was essentially unemployed. (Bartender)… Now I am far from unemployed and I cant seem to figure it out… I just need to start figuring out what I am doing wrong and change it… I think my biggest problem is not pursuing girls who seem interested…!

Alone?

So I am working on getting this workout, healthy eating plan intitiated. It is slow moving. I have little to no free time between work and moving. I also would like to find an opportunity to have time for girls… It just keeps getting worse, the longer I try to remain single and focused on career. As soon as I move I will be mostly unable to date. So what will I do then… I will be forced into being single… I am thinking I need to figure out a solution to all my problems… I must say I am doing quite well by most peoples standards, however does that help anything when there is no one to go home to? Well I will see how lunch goes today…

Good choices... Hopefully

So I took the guy out for Margarita Monday. We chatted about things and I can better see how he is feeling about the whole situation. He will try harder and I will not interfere. I figured that is the least I could do… Back off let things run there course. Yes, that is the decent thing to do. Plus the more we talked the more I could see that I prefer his friendship to the meaningless desire for a potential relationship with girl. See that is the thing… If I could get away with things in the past I am more then willing to continue that behavior. That needs to stop. So with that I am going back to the way I need to live my life. I am going to start getting in shape, (not that I am outta shape) I just want to get back in the habit of pursuing an active lifestyle… Too much computer work and I will soon begin to slip into the out of shape category. Eating healthy, this is another big one, Although I still look healthy, I need to be healthy. I already have high cholesterol and blood pressure… 23 years old… Bad bad bad… So from now on no more bad food…
Third and finally, I am going to set some goals and not give up until they are accomplished… So there…

And the last thing I have to say… My friend is lucky cause if I did not think he was a good guy, I would so be pursuing that girl…

Weekends... They keep coming...

Lots of new stuff going on… I am 85% moved. Will be finished this weekend. I am excited… The weather is getting great at the studio. I have had the fireplace going the last couple times I was up. Nothing is more awesome then a fire in a woodstove… It is sad how excited I get about that. But really that is the whole reason I want to get away from the city. I want to be out living a simple life for a while…
Just today, I received a email from an ex. She is living a few hours away and is thinking about coming back. I haven’t heard from her in months… I don’t know how I feel about it… Basically it is one of those situations I plan to avoid… Although I did not ask out Radioshack girl… I did make an attempt at another girl. It was somewhat confusing. I do not know for sure, but I have a feeling she has extreme ADD. As we talked she kept changing the subject, even to the point of mid sentence. I am super confused about it. A friend of mine who has talked to her before said that is just how she is… So I don’t know what to think.
My friend is dating this girl who I think I would totally go for if he wasn’t already starting to try and date her. How weird would that be even if it doesn’t work out between them, will I ever have a chance? Maybe… but it would probably be at the cost of my friendship… So nope.. She is basically out of reach permanently. How many people out there have dated a friends ex? Or better yet how many have hooked up with a friends ex? Is it a bad thing? What if you tried to pursue the girl/guy while they were still with your friend..? Would that be ok if you were up front with him/her?

Still trying...

So… I am not good at this daily thing anymore… I will keep trying but can not promise anything. I am moving some major items to the studio. I will either head out tonight or tomorrow am. I am excited about many things that I am unable to comment on as I am unsure if they will happen. This includes the bachelor party trip, a weekend trip, and a semi planned vacation this Memorial Day week. I plan on taking the whole week and going south. There are two other trips happening this summer that are planned. So five vacations minimum this summer. Also planning on taking a few weekend backpacking trips as weather allows….
So what is more important, women or career?

Missed yesterday...

Studios… They are great… I am thinking more and more that I would like to purchase a warehouse somewhere and put up walls and soundproofing and make an office building of sorts, but instead of offices, have a large number of art studios, video production studios and music recording studios. Then offer them up for rent… Basically I don’t even need to rent them, I just want one of each for myself. That is in fact one of the goals if I end up living out at the studio very long. I think I will end up building a large garage style building to house a separate recording studio and video studio….
OK… I am done with that… I am thinking a lot about my situation and the only conclusion I have came to is that I need a refill on my coffee….
After I get that I will finish this post and perhaps put together the post I failed to finish yesterday….

Weekend Posts

Sorry no weekend posts happened. I had a busy weekend... On friday I ended up at a party at my friends house. Got very drunk and stayed up till 5 or 6 in his recording studio while they were recording a new song. Got a ride home. Woke up fairly early spent most of the day hanging out close to my bed, watched a couple movies, went and got some food, came back and relaxed more. In the evening a bunch of friends came over and we had a poker night. Got to bed late the next morning. Woke up.. Went out to the studio and got a lot of cleaning and rearranging done so that I will be able to move most of my furniture up this upcoming weekend. The way I have it set up now I am going to have an awesome set-up.. If it wasnt for the commute it would almost be my ideal living situation. Well that being said, I am going to get back to work...

Exciting Posts to Come

The weekend is upon us. I am more then ready for a weekend after this week. I don’t think I will do anything special. However I am looking forward to seeing friends. I have finally made some progress at work and plan to start some new exciting projects this following week.. I am getting two days in a row with updates… Lets see if I can keep it up all weekend….
I actually plan on telling some storys this weekend... Probally tonight so CHECK BACK THIS WEEKEND>>>

Lets try again....

Ok…. Here it is… I disappeared for days longer then I should have. Most of it is purely busyness. I think everybody has that problem, but for me I have not found a way to deal with it. My job has reached a point where I could work 12 hour days and not catch up. Home is the same way. I have so much to do when I get home I barely have time to do anything. So friends are getting neglected and my family is the only people who get to see me regularly, however for short times only.
I think most everybody has given up on me and this blog. I will try to fix that. I think part of the reason I have not made time for it was I was unable to ask that girl out. I went in and talked to her. I walked out. I went back in slightly later in the evening and once again just had to pretend I needed to buy something as I could not get out the words… Usually I don’t have this problem so I do not know what is going on. So because of my inability to ask her out, I am now embarrassed. So I avoided coming back on here as I knew I would have to admit that I failed. Not because I don’t think she is interested. Actually I think she is… however I was so foolish on my attempt I would feel silly going back in.
Ok so I just went to my boss’s office to get a refresh on my coffee… Now as if I wasn’t already swamped, she just informed me of three new jobs that I need to start work on… HA… Sometimes when you get a raise it just doesn’t match up with the required work load… Because of the coffee trip I am going to have to cut this adventure short. I will try to finish my update tonight…