... The day is here

Ok so today is the day…. Getting nervous… Expect an update…

New day....

So what does it mean when everybody disappears….
I have finally recovered from my computer crash… yet now people appear to be missing in action… I have tried and tried to reach a person and they just do not seem to exist anymore…. Grrr… Now I cannot tell if my email is not working or if this person is just avoiding me. Also they have stopped posting on their site… So what do I do?
That put aside I am trying to get out more. I went out last Friday. Went to a local club, then to a bar, but then back to the club. I was not really impressed by any of it, but I was with good friends so I did not feel like much was lost. I bumped into an ex at the mall on Thursday. She asked for me to call, and even though I probably will not, it was nice to know she wanted me to.
I did bump into someone new. As all of those who have read my old posts know, it is my biggest complaint is that I can not find any “new” people in my area. But the other day I went to the store to buy something for a friend. The girl working there was cute. I was definitely thinking that she must be from somewhere else, because as far as I knew I had never met her before. I made small talk and although I was in a rush to get home with the purchase, I still took the time to try and determine some things about this “new” girl. Turns out she has lived in my town her whole life…. ? ? ? So I pushed the subject as I figured that she must have went to a different school or she was older then I previously thought… See I was thinking she must be around my age or a year or two older. But for her to have grown up in my town and gone to my high school, she must be much older then me for me to not have known her. As I may have said before I grew up with my brothers friends and my best friend’ brothers friends all of which are about 3-4 years older then me, so I knew all the girls that were their age, because that’s who I hung out with. So I started thinking this girl must be like 27 or 28…. But since she was still claiming that she was going to school and that she was still in college, I began to think that something was off. A 27 year old who is still going to community college? Not a bad thing, just not very common. So I asked when she graduated high school. She said 2003… Wow. That would do it. I don’t know many of the people who are younger then me…. So that is how she got through living in the town without us meeting before. But then I started thinking, she is younger but not toooo young. 19 or 20 is a lot better then 17… So what am I to do. I left the store on a good note, I just need to think of an excuse to go back in to finish our chat. I am slightly excited, because she seemed as interested in me as I was in her…. Maybe she wasn’t. But if I don’t make an attempt I will never know. Plus it has been way too long since I went on a date… I need to get out more…
Well I wish the people I want to talk to would write back…. Or at least tell me that my emails are not coming through…

Thats it?

The weather is providing no hints as to its intention for this weekend. I see the sun come out, then it disappears then it comes out then it goes away…. I am so confused….

I will have a wonderful weekend regardless….

I am going out to meet new people!!!

Short and sweet....

Another day… Well I am still looking for a few of my daily read blogs… I guess they are probably just gone forever… I guess I can handle that.

So I am ready to begin doing more graphic design projects. I am interested in doing logo’s… But my experience is more focused around brochures and flyers. I am also willing to do CD cases for musicians and/or bands. I guess I will just leave it at that.

I am getting more and more excited about my relocation to the mountains… I think it will do me much good…

Because of the long commute expected, I was wondering if anybody had any advise on whether to go with XM or Sirus radio. I have only had limited exposure to each and I will need one or the other to be able to survive the long hours in the car…. So any advise would be greatly appreciated…

Missing in action....

Welcome back. I have gotten over my illness that ruined my last couple weeks. I have began to return to normal operating mode. I have also decided to relocate. I am planning on moving in the next few weeks. I want to get away from city life. I am going to have to deal with a long commute, however the freedom and solidarity I will gain will hopefully make it worth it. If not I will just move back. I want to try it….
That being said, I think this change will free up much time for me to get back to my painting and creative side. I do not plan on having tv in my new living area. I want to be as technologically isolated as I can. I will be taking a computer so that hopefully I can continue graphic designing. But other then that I want no distractions from my painting.
Since I have not mentioned girls for a long time I figured I should throw a quick update up. I am currently still single. Once again it is mainly by choice. I have came across a number of girls that I probably would have no problem pursuing. However, this would require me to compromise my true wants and goals. I would like to get a little closer to my career goals before getting back into a committed serious relationship. I did go out the other night to see the local nightlife and meet up with friends. I went to one bar and had a beer while watching my old college basketball team play on tv. After that I went up to the local Indian casino. I ended up winning. I left before giving it back, but on my way back to the bars I got pulled over. Apparently the officer claimed to smell alcohol on me, from the other side of the car. Now I only had one beer and it was two and a half hours prior to being pulled over. So I knew this was somewhat B.S. I had to submit to the field sobriety tests and a Breathalyzer test only to be handed back my license and told to drive safely. Now I started thinking about it when I returned to my car, that the officer never gave me a reason why I was pulled over, just that once he asked for my license registration and insurance he smelt alcohol. He did not claim I was driving funny or anything…. So now I am curious if it was even a legal reason to pull me over, with no suspicion or reason except after the fact…. Well no big deal, I get pulled over all the time, so if it is harassment I am used to it. I think in the 7+ years that I have been driving I have been pulled over approximately 18 times. Now most would say that I am a bad driver, but on the contrary I am usually not doing anything worthy of a ticket, I think I am just a young male and look like I am doing something wrong… So pulled over a ton of times and only two tickets… and both of them are really questionable…
Back to the point of the story: after the police encounter I returned to the bar, which in my absence had become quite busy. I noticed some people I knew. I went up and started socializing when an ex that I had not seen in awhile noticed me and came up and started talking to me. Casual conversation, “how are you?’ “what are you doing now?” etc. Then she proceeded to introduce me to this other girl she was with who I had already noticed earlier. The second girl was another ex that I have not seen for many years. So the first girl was like this is “____” and we both were like , “ we know each other. “ First girl gets busy with other stuff. I talk to my other ex. She remembered me breaking up with her, which I am sure was not the case. We argued about that for a while. I must admit she was looking very good after all these years. However, I did not want to take the chance of pushing for anything, so I told her I was going to leave. She mentioned hoping to see me around (she has recently moved back from elsewhere), I mentioned that it is inevitable, and made my exit. I became very confused as I had a desire to pursue hanging out with this girl, but at the same time I am not ready for that, as mentioned above. Well… I am back and healthy so I will be back to dayly updates, until I move.
When I move I am moving into the mountains where internet is not an option, so I may not be able to keep up on it…. We will see…
Also, all of my bookmarks were erased recently and so I have no way to re-find all my daily reading, so if you read this and want me to read yours leave a comment and I will update my bookmarks….